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- April 11
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I miss our long walks in the streets of Manila. I miss our favorite coffee shop where we try almost all their drinks. I miss the moment when you always want my drink, and I have no choice but to switch it to yours because you have the cutest smile. I miss sharing cocktails and beers with you in Makati. I miss sneaking into your house at night, hugging you endlessly, and waking up next to you. I miss our breakfast dates – simple but sweet, knowing I’m starting the day right with you. I miss our late-night Facetime calls – ensuring we understand how our day went and what we felt. I miss how you share your AirPods with me as we listen to your favorite Taylor Swifts songs. I missed the moments when you introduced me to your friends, which whom I made friendships too. I miss your support in my career, even if it’s different in your field. I miss your initiative to see me despite your busy schedule. I miss how you understand that I always sleep earlier than you. I miss you for accepting me for who I am and being blunt about what I can improve.
I miss many things about you; I miss doing with you and doing for you. These are the things that I’m thankful for that I could have said to you in person but never had the chance the last time we talked. If I can only have the opportunity to experience this all over again, I will. But this is the risk that we took – our good friendship was at stake. This is the chance that I will never regret taking again. I hope you feel the same way too.
(I wrote a lot about you. And this plain-sailing and incoherent entry is one of the few I will put here. You may never come across this, but if you happen to read this in the future, I want you to know that I’m proud of you, even at times when you feel like I don’t. And at this point, I can’t help but still miss you.)
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I started 2022 with no expectations at all. I thought it would be the same as the past two years full of lockdowns and quarantines. But no, we can finally go out again, make memories, and experience life.
It’s been a long but good 2022 for me. I’ve experienced the happiest and most challenging moments. From facing my insecurities and dealing with them. From meeting a lot of new people and breaking down my walls. From closing sales and backout sales. From going on dates and going back to the best one. From balancing my career and deciding to study again. To falling in love and experiencing heartbreak. Most significantly, from the chance of electing the best president, but the majority settle for less than we deserve.
As you all know, I’m not an open book. It takes time to know me, and reading this isn’t enough. Kaya it’s been a long time rin since I posted here. Because I don’t have the energy to share, I have no time, and I’m done with this phase. But what made me go back here is the chance to document my thoughts before this good year ends. It’s going to be relatively short and sentimental, haha
- I’ve realized that giving your best is not enough to achieve your desired results. No matter if you give your all, exerted so much time, and put your heart into it, you’ll not get it if it’s not meant for you. That’s the reality of life. To put things in perspective, you don’t get it not because you don’t deserve it but because you deserve the best.
- Another realization that we are all familiar with is — people come and go. Whether it’s a friend or a special someone, it’s tough to let go of the people who have become part of our lives. But sometimes, things don’t just work out. We can’t force friendships or relationships to work. We can always be the one who understands people. Whether it’s our decision or theirs to move forward, I think it is necessary to explain the real reason so we won’t have regrets in the future.
- Not surprisingly, I’m thankful I’m safe from experiencing the quarter-life crisis. I felt that I experienced it too early, like when I was 21 or 22, so I’m truly grateful and satisfied with where I was.
If there is one thing I’m proud of this year is how I handled the challenges, like facing my fears, avoiding self-doubts, and controlling how I react to different situations. My mindset this 2022, which I want to bring this coming year, is to enjoy and learn from the good and bad moments. No one can stop me from doing my best, creating quality friendships and relationships, and being grateful.
I hope you had a great 2022. I wish nothing but the best for you in 2023. Cheers!
